I hate everyone.
Why is it that I am so different to everyone else around me? I’m an Alpha for
Ford’s sake, I shouldn't be treated this way. Within the World State, I was
born being a part of the highest class possible, yet even mere Epsilons defy me.
Like earlier today when I was trying to get this damn machine to take off, that
Epsilon didn't listen to my orders! I clearly told him to start the engine that
way I could make it to my engagement on time, but he just stood there as if
nothing happened. I know they are made to be slow, but it is obvious that when
an Alpha says to do something, you do it. I realize that my physical
characteristics are not up to par with other Alphas, but the differences in our
attributes are not that drastic. That Epsilon must be extraordinarily slow when
compared to the rest of his kind.
I shouldn't be
this mad over an Epsilon’s actions, or in this case a lack of action. Just
remember Bernard, “Everyone belongs to everyone else” (Huxley 40). It only took
62 thousand repetitions of this phrase over a 30 month period to make it into
truth. I should at least try to remember it. This phrase, along with countless
others, are repeated at least three days per week during the night with
anywhere between 40 to 50 repetitions each time. Sometimes, I wonder what it is
like to sleep without the hypnopaedic lessons. With all these phrases becoming
truths through constant repetition, it seems like our society would fall apart
without them. How is it possible that the savages are able to survive in our
world despite the clear differences in technology and intelligence? I can only
imagine how different it is to live in two different worlds.
Soon, my
guessing will end. I have already made plans to visit the savages and I am
looking forward to it. I even asked Lenina to go with me, although she seemed a
little reluctant at first. There is still some time before I have to leave, so
maybe she will give me a final answer before then. Damn that Henry! Always
bragging about what he and Lenina did together. All the other guys just seem
capable to getting woman, except me. It is probably because I am so different
compared to the rest. It will be my turn soon to be with Lenina, hopefully.
There is still a chance she will say yes to go on the trip with me, unless she
believes all the stories they say about me. I hear the phrase all too often. It
is almost as if everyone at the hatchery had an additional hypnopaedic lesson
which repeated phrases explaining my actions. Something along the lines of,
“Oh, it must be because of the all the alcohol added to his bottle.”
The story is
similar to something like this. When I was still in my bottle, someone thought
I was supposed to be an Epsilon, not an Alpha. As a result, the worker
accidentally added more alcohol to my bottle to cause damage, that way I would be
slower and less physically built when compared to most in society. However, the
worker realized their mistake and stopped adding alcohol before they caused too
much damage. That’s the reason I look and act like this. Everyone talks behind
my back, saying that I need to take a soma tablet when I get angry. No one
understands that I prefer being angry than taking those pills. I only take soma
tablets when I am in a dire situation that calls for drastic action or when there
is too much for me to handle.
Maybe, when I go
to see the savages, I can bring something back that will revolutionize the
World State or even make me famous. The Director of the Hatchery said he once
visited the savages as well, but lost the woman he was with. Maybe, just maybe,
I can find something that will pertain to the Director. While there, I will
have to search for her and bring her back. The Director has given me too many
threats. Not only would I get payback against the Director, but at the same
time I will make everyone in the World State remember my name; Bernard Marx!
Works Cited:
Huxley, Aldous. Brave
New World. New York: Harper & Bros., 1946. Print.
Good post! It sounded like Bernard when you used the word "Ford" and stated how many times the repetition was given to the children.
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